February 2012
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i am so lonely. there isn’t a feeling in the world i am more terrified of.
i hate these feelings that bombard me at night. and i hate not having my own room because at least then i could acknowledge these feelings and maybe drown them in a tear or two.
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i need to read or write. i need to do something mentally stimulating and it certainly isn’t going to be studying. oh well, looks like i’m paralyzed in front of the internet. no wonder i’m always wanting more time, i waste so much of it.
for whatever reason i feel so energized right now. i went to the gym a little late this evening and now i feel ready to conquer the world or at least take a midnight trip to the graveyard. oh what a contradiction i am. either way i am feeling good. i need to stay in this frame of mind.
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well shit. when it comes to guys, college has been very cruel to me. it has come to my attention more and more lately that everyone around me is getting action or at least engaging in some heavy flirtation. me… nada. call me what you want, but this lack of any sort of male attention has led me to question whether or not i am a complete troll. don’t i at least have a compelling...
i wish i could block all gifs from my dash. gifs tend to hurt my head and they get on my nerves. that is all, carry on with your evening.
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pretty please?
1. Three things I want to say to three different people.
2. One of my insecurities.
3. What turns me on.
4. One of my bad habits.
5. Who I wish I could be.
6. Where I want to be right now.
7. The last thing I ate.
8. Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately.
9. What song I’m currently listening to.
10. The last time I cried and why.
11. Something I’m excited about.
12. 5 things I like about myself and 5 things I dislike about myself.
13. Three things I want right now.
14. Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you, where’s it from?
15. How long was your last phone conversation?
16. What are you looking forward to?
17. Did you get anything off your chest today?
18. How many rings do you usually wear?
19. Would you rather go to Canada or California on vacation?
20. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants?
21. Do you call it fall or autumn?
22. Are you an emotional person?
23. It’s 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely from?
24. Do you like long car rides?
25. Do you have an adult you can talk to about anything?
26. Last time you saw your dad?
27. Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
28. Do you do your own laundry?
29. Would you like the ability to read minds?
30. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
31. You’re thinking about a certain person right now, aren’t you?
32. What will you be doing in five years?
34. Last 2 people to text you?
35. Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
36. Do you like to cuddle?
37. When angry, do you get loud or quiet?
38. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed on the lips?
39. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
40. How’s your hair right now?
the downfall of a quarter system university
class is held on presidents day. tomorrow. also known as my birthday.
this sad little fact forces me to be in bed researching plate tectonics instead of getting sloppy right now. get it together oregon.
as the hashtag predicted, i have absolutely no memory of “living it rift now” or what that means. oh well, happy celebrating.
living it rift now #wontremember
well this took a turn for the worse. a damn sharp turn.
although the festivities began tuesday, BIRTHDAY WEEKEND has officially arrived.
florajanefauna asked: hey! what's your name?
loving the workout routine. now if only i could step away from the shit food.
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i just want some lovinn’ for my birthday.
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Yekermo Sew: The wrath of the social network →
lemurnelle:
It’s only been a week and I keep almost accidentally reactivating my Facebook. I’m going to try and not go on FB until I can get myself to stop automatically typing the Facebook URL when I get on my computer. I’m also trying to keep my Tumblr from becoming my alternative to status updates. I’m…
I am adopting the phrase ‘ink it out’ because if it isn’t one...
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so i got in a fight with the cereal lady today. well really it was a continuation of yesterday’s tiff, but fuck what a way to start off a day.
then with 40+ dates flying around in my head and enough sanskrit terms to compose a buddhist text, i was found myself staring blankly at the slide to one of the essay questions on my indian art midterm. oh and the great stupa is at sanchi not shanti....
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i need to get away from my mind.
tumblr is good for the lonesome heart. and while I’m here, it appears that I chipped my tooth this weekend.
poeticdeviceless asked: Hey! I like your Tumblr rants. I can relate to a lot of what you say :) Especially about people freaking out about tattoos or what I'm going to do with my art major haha. What are you in school for?
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i am having the most terrible time with astronomy.
please take up my time with anything, i am oh so willing to answer whatever you have for me. or tell me a story for fucks sake.
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it is always funny to reread my writing because i can tell when i am in a frazzled state of mind based on my penmanship. yesterday’s writing is a frantic mess. i can’t use those clues on the keyboard. i guess that shows how much more personal my hand written writing is, it gives a further look into my condition than this allows. that is sort of beautiful to think about.
my room is...
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attention ladies and gentlemen:
The Fitty Book is up and running. here begins the hard work, strength and determination. legggoo!
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i never liked mr big. in fact i’ve always thought he is a scuzzy asshole, not cute, not worth all the shit. i always kind of wanted carrie to end up alone. i think that’d be a stronger, happier ending.
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come over. lay down next to me on the floor.
let me nuzzle into you. and whisper nice things.
tell me i’m not completely mad and even if i were you would love every piece of me.
can you do that?
i need to hear those things when i am in the midst of a moment.
i need to feel your breath as you whisper them.
tell me everything is going to turn out just fine.
can you do that baby?
i know...
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well the library becomes a whole lot more productive when tumblr is down
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January 2012
50 posts
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productivity! class, gym, shower, french lesson, sushi all before twelve. then more class, followed by a bit of paper drafting before astronomy. and after i’ll have more homework plus some laundry to tackle, dinner and bed. this is life mid term as a freshman. whew, now it is solar system time.
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feeling oh so lazy on this saturday night. feeling a little lonesome, but not wanting to make any more of an effort than sitting in front of my computer requires. homework, activity, showering, laundry, all of that will be dealt with in the morning. every day brings something new. not all new feels so good.